Morning yoga, which includes:
-Lots of abs
-10 heart openers
-And of course…an inversion
I could not sleep last night. It was terrible. I got in bed at 11 and my heart just started racing. I don’t like sleeping alone and always freak myself out in this big house. It got to be 12:30 and I did the only thing I knew to do: call Logan and cry and cry. He stayed on video chat with me until I felt calm enough to try to sleep and I finally got to sleep around 2:00.
4 miles on 4.5 hours of sleep. So since I basically expended an hour of energy on each mile…what does that mean for the rest of the day?
I used to not like coming home. I used to feel so restricted compared to my freedoms I had when I was at school.
I honestly think it’s because when I was in college, I was in a terrible, unhealthy relationship and didn’t feel independent enough to be away from him. My happiness only depended on him. Even when I was with my best friends, I was always wishing I could be with him. Like…what is that?!
It makes me realize how much I’ve developed as a human being. My confidence has grown. I experience so many things in my daily life that just make me happy. Eating cheese or running down a hill with my arms spread wide or sweating it out during a yoga practice. My mom and I snuggling on the couch and watching really terrible (but we secretly love them) movies with my little sister. And the sunshine that peeps through our little sunroof in our house. The changes I’ve implemented in my life have made me a happier person in every aspect. And now when I go home, I don’t want to leave. Everything is just so blissful here and I’m glad this bliss has been unveiled because of decisions I’ve made- like dropping that relationship, focusing more of my energy on people I truly love and care about and putting forth more effort in those relationships, starting a regular yoga practice, and beginning to really really love myself.
Just feeling real great right now.